Like all new jobs, there was fear of failure. (Talk about pressure. God would be my boss.) But, like any new job, there was also the excitement in the opportunity. Lot's of it. (Hadn't he chose me for this position after all?) So...I told people I'd been hired and I jumped in with enthusiasm. After a rocky start, the next six months flew by. The job practically did itself.
Then a few trials came. Then, a few more. My life got really hard and the job got seriously tough. Sooo,... I quit.
Several months passed and since I hadn't really talked about quitting my job a few people asked about it. "It was fine." I said. I was vague.
I need to finish this, I thought. Lots of people knew I had started. I could do this. I could so do this. I'd been trained. I'd been trained well. I could do this job with my eyes closed. I was gonna finish.
I got busy writing the job description for the second half. Piece a cake. No problem. I was all over it.
Then God stopped me. "I'm sorry. I really love you, but I'm not happy with your job description. I'm sending you on a vacation. Go back to your life and keep your eyes and heart on me. I'll let you know when it's time to come back."
Fine, Lord. That's just fine with me, I thought. I have more on my plate right now then I can handle now anyway. So, I laid it down, and I walked away. That was about seven months ago.
On Wed. night I passed on small group. I had been placed on a jury. A felony criminal jury. Two days of jury selection and one day of really hard testimony. I was spent. I needed a shower and some quiet time alone with God.
When I got out of the shower and stepped into my bedroom, I froze. On the floor, right in front of me beside my bed was a piece of paper. I knew this piece of paper because I had written the words on the page. I did not know where it had come from. I had not seen it in over a year.
The hair on my arms stood up and I tightened the towel I was wearing. At the exact moment fear began to rise up inside me, I knew the truth. This was supernatural. A supernatural act of God.
I walked around the paper three times, staring at it but afraid to touch it. I picked up my Iphone and took of it for proof later that it hadn't been a dream.
On the floor was the dedication page to my bible study. My sister's name was on it, as were the editing marks of my friend Peggy. I text-ed them both the picture.
"I found this on the floor when I came out of the shower. I'm alone. Haven't seen this in almost a year. Thought you both should know."
One replied with, "Maybe the Holy Spirit wants you to pray for us."
I can do that, I thought. I can totally do that. And I did."
The other said, "Omg! God is telling you something big here. Wow."
Yes, I thought, He certainly is.
I have felt God's gentle nudgings about getting back to this task more than once. "Is that you, Lord? Hmmm... I'm not so sure." I was thinking about my busy life. I had just started the garden and school was almost out. I would be working full-time soon. I told myself it wasn't Gods prompting. He said I would "Know" when it was time.
Well...He was right.
Sometimes God speaks to us through the old testament stories with words he spoke to Moses. Sometimes, God speaks to us through dreams and visions just the way he did with the bible prophets. He certainly speaks to us through the actions of our Savior, Jesus.
Sometimes his voice is just a quiet one inside our spirit.
God may not be going before us with a cloud of fire, parting the red sea, or laying manna at our feet. But there are times, like on Wed. night, that God speaks supernaturally to us through a piece of paper that he puts on the floor.
If you're ready, I'm ready, Lord. Help me finish this job...