I have to choose. Everyday I have to choose because bad news comes and then more bad news and then more. I dont want to hear it so I don't listen. I turn off the news. But then it comes anyway too close to home. A nieces baby full of cancer. A father who exampled strength and hardwork facing cancer for the fourth time. My father...and I know he can't have much fight left. Cancer on skin I touch and know so well...cutting, burning, waiting.
I don't want to think about. Dont know what to say, so I pray and work and walk.
I listen to music and read and watch TV and take care of business and then pray more but it's all still there and it's ugly and it hurts and I hate cancer.
But in the moments...those moments when I open my eyes to really see, when I quiet my mind and surrender my heart God takes them captive and puts this in the sky and I know...
I know he has answers to every hard thing. Every one.
So I choose this.
Blind Faith? No! Can't you see?
I choose the promises of a God who makes mountains and paints sky.
I will cry but I will trust Him and I will choose Him.
I will choose this.
I don't want to think about. Dont know what to say, so I pray and work and walk.
I listen to music and read and watch TV and take care of business and then pray more but it's all still there and it's ugly and it hurts and I hate cancer.
But in the moments...those moments when I open my eyes to really see, when I quiet my mind and surrender my heart God takes them captive and puts this in the sky and I know...
I know he has answers to every hard thing. Every one.
So I choose this.
Blind Faith? No! Can't you see?
I choose the promises of a God who makes mountains and paints sky.
I will cry but I will trust Him and I will choose Him.
I will choose this.
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